In February, my mentor, and friend, asked me a question about my recent writingsโฆ.
A question that Iโve answered many times before with ease.
โ๐คโ๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐?โ
As I began to articulate my reasons, I felt it.
I felt my eyes well up, that feeling that seems move its way up our body, as if water was moving towards our eyes, from our feet or something.
At first, I attempted to hold them back, and paused my story.
Then I would start telling my story again, and as you would guess, the sensation to let the tears slide down the side of my face grew.
And so I let them.
๐๐ก๐๐ฌ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ญ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ ๐จ๐โฆ
โ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐, ๐กโ๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐๐โ
โ๐๐ข๐โ, ๐ผ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก โ๐๐ก ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โ๐ข๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ โ๐๐๐โ
๐๐.
๐ง๐ต๐ฒ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐บ๐๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ป ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐โฆ
๐ง๐ต๐ฒ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐บ๐ฒ ๐ณ๐ฟ๐ผ๐บ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ฟ๐ฒ๐บ๐ฒ๐น๐ ๐ถ๐บ๐ฝ๐ผ๐ฟ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ ๐บ๐ฒ.
๐ง๐ต๐ฒ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐บ๐ฒ ๐ณ๐ฟ๐ผ๐บ ๐ฎ ๐ฝ๐น๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐ผ๐ณ ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ, ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป, ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ต๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐.
The best way to articulate this, imagine for a moment, the love forโฆ
๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐๐ซ๐๐ง
๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ญ๐ฌ
๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
And ask yourself, โโ๐๐ค ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐ฆ ๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ?โ
When you truly connect to that love for them, not just logically, but really feel it, you will understand the kind of tears that streamed down my face as I spoke.
So often, and I have done this for many years, we want to hide away from sharing with others, things that are.. truly unique to us, that drive our actions, our focus, our life.
๐๐ง๐, ๐ข๐ง ๐ฌ๐ก๐จ๐ซ๐ญ, ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐!
Because thatโs how we miss out on developing rewarding relationships with..
๐๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐๐ซ๐๐ง
๐๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐ซ๐ข๐๐ง๐๐ฌ
๐๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐๐ฌ
๐๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐๐ฌโฆ.๐๐ฏ๐๐ง ๐๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ข๐ง๐๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐๐ฅ๐ข๐๐ง๐ญ๐ฌ ๐จ๐ซ ๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐ญ๐ง๐๐ซ๐ฌ!
Some reading this may say, โ๐โ, ๐ ๐ ๐ผ ๐ โ๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ก ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ก ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ ?โ
NOPE. NOT WHAT IโM SAYING ๐
I say that, because four years ago, that would have been me.
I would have scoffed at the idea of being truthful with those around me, and in my life, because I thought the world was out to get me, so ๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐๐๐ญ ๐ข๐ญ, ๐๐๐๐จ๐ซ๐ ๐ข๐ญ ๐๐๐๐ญ ๐ฆ๐.
And you know what, those defenses were not strength, they were ๐ ๐๐๐!
Fear that comes from the โriskโ ofโฆ
๐๐๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ง๐๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ / ๐๐ฉ๐๐ง
๐๐๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ / ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ซ๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐ฌ๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐โฆ.๐๐๐
All fears about โ๐โ๐๐ก ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ป๐ โ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ผโ๐ ๐๐ฆ๐ ๐๐๐โ
๐๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฒ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ข๐ง๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ซ๐จ๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐ข๐๐ฅ
๐๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ฉ๐๐ฌ๐ญ, ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐๐ ๐๐
๐๐ ๐, ๐ฌ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฌ (๐ฒ๐๐ฌ, ๐๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง๐ฌ) ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ฌ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐จ๐ง๐
OR, dare I say, cry in front of someone.
Fear creates separation, disconnection, and isolation.
Life is too short to live in our self made walls. They are not protecting us from anything, 99% of the time. Other than protecting us from truly experiencing the best in our life.
The people in it.
Iโm grateful that I now have friendships and partnerships, where Iโm just cool with being me.
And even more importantly, accepted for being me. And if not, thatโs cool. Others will :). I intend on living this wa
๐๐: ๐ผ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ก, ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ค ๐๐ข๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ..
1.๐โ๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐?
2.๐ป๐๐ค ๐๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ก ๐ โ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐ ?
3.๐โ๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ก ๐ โ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐ ?
4.๐โ๐๐โ ๐๐ ๐กโ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐น๐ด๐ถ๐๐?
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โ๐โ๐ ๐๐๐ง๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ก ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐. ๐โ๐ ๐โ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐กโ๐๐, ๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐คโ๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐ง๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ง๐๐ . ๐๐๐ข ๐๐๐โ๐ก ๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐ก, ๐ ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข โ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ก.โ
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