Waking up feeling refreshed today, taking time to meditate and then read, I continued my morning like I always do, with a questionโฆ
โ๐โ๐๐กโ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ โ๐๐๐๐ก ๐ก๐๐๐๐ฆ?โ
As Iโm asking myself this, I pull out my journal, and I begin to write.
๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ด๐ถ๐ป ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฟ๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐๐ต๐ผ๐๐ด๐ต๐๐ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ฐ๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ ๐บ๐ถ๐ป๐ฑ
๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ด๐ถ๐ป ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฟ๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ฏ๐ผ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐ฝ๐ต๐๐๐ถ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐น ๐๐ฒ๐ป๐๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ ๐ป๐ผ๐๐ถ๐ฐ๐ฒ
๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ด๐ถ๐ป ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฟ๐ถ๐๐ฒโฆ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐๐ถ๐บ๐ฒ๐, ๐ป๐ผ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฐ๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ฝ
And in that case, I ask myself againโฆ
And again, if necessary
Ang again, if needed
Until I start to write once more. And before I know it,
The sound of my fingers tapping the keyboard comes to life
The sight of the cursor dancing across the screen puts a smile on my face
The feeling of sheer calm and enjoyment as words pour out is evident
For me, this one activity brings together all of my experiences in life.
For me, this is the most enjoyable part of my day.
For me, this one daily activity improves my ability to care for and connect with others
โฆAnd allows me to express everything in a way that
#๐ญ ๐ข๐ฏ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐๐ฒ๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ป๐๐ถ๐ณ๐ถ๐ฒ๐ ๐ถ๐ป๐๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐๐ ๐ฏ๐ผ๐๐ต ๐ถ๐ป๐๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ผ๐๐๐๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฒ ๐ผ๐ณ ๐บ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ ๐บ๐ฎ๐ ๐ต๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐บ๐ถ๐๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ถ๐ป ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐บ๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐ป๐
#๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ฒ๐๐ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐โ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ถ๐ป๐ด, ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐, ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐โ๐บ ๐ด๐ผ๐ถ๐ป๐ด, ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ต๐ผ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฎ๐ป๐ด๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ป๐๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ฑ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ฏ๐ฒ
#๐ฏ ๐ฅ๐ฒ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ๐ ๐ณ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐ฟ๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐, ๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐ถ๐ฒ๐๐, ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฟ๐๐ผ๐๐๐ป๐ฒ๐๐, ๐๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฟ๐, ๐๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ป๐ฒ๐๐
#๐ฐ ๐๐ป๐ต๐ฎ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ ๐ต๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ๐๐, ๐ท๐ผ๐, ๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป, ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ด๐ฟ๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐๐๐ฑ๐ฒ
And yesterday was no different, as I wrote the followingโฆ.
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๐๐ป๐๐ฟ๐ ๐๐ฒ๐ฏ๐ฟ๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ ๐ฎ๐ด, ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ต
โ๐โ๐๐กโ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ โ๐๐๐๐ก ๐ก๐๐๐๐ฆ?โ
Whatโs on my mind is many things, but few all the same.
I use to think that if my mind moved at a slower pace, there was something wrong with me, as It was a badge of achievement and productivity when my mind was consciously processing multiple problems at a time.
Well, something Iโve noticed over the previous months, in comparison to the majority of my life, my mind now moves a much slower pace. It processes and absorbs information with more intention. My mind receives clearer messages than ever before, vs mixed messages and signals that often left me showing up as frantic, nervous, anxious, and realistically, afraid of one thing or another.
Whether I was nervous about the conversation I needed to have with my significant other. Or, anxious about the pending presentation I had that week. Or, uneasy about the future of my career, and not knowing what I wanted to change. My mind was always trying to avoid pain by moving 1 million miles per hour. It was exhausting.
And, Iโm certain I came off as either arrogant, rude, distant, aloof, or many other things, depending on the person perceiving my actions, reactions, or body language.
However, I can tell that I have slowed greatly, and it feels incredible. Iโm grateful for the slowed intentionality, especially as I focus on improving my writing and message that Iโm sharing on Facebook, and soon enough, blog.
Thankfully, I donโt feel the same fear about posting that I use to. That fear that I was doing something wrong. That fear that people would criticize me and my message. The fear that I would be rejected or met with indifference. The fear of just being me.
And the funny thing, I notice that, yes, there are times I still feel unease, but for the most part, I have changed my relationship to the fear I once felt about sharing openly on social media. More often than not, when Iโm hitting โpostโ, I have a smile, versus a wave of anxiety.
Which is a great thing, because if Iโm going to share about how people can change their relationship with fear, I must be able to do it myself. Without being able to change the relationship with my own fear, I would be left with a vision I want for my life, and without taking any action, means it would never happen. And, that is unacceptable.
I firmly believe in the creative and destructive power that our energy puts off, the energy that comes from within us, from our hearts and mind
I believe that our inner world steers our actions, and thus, creates the world we see, and often find ourselves inhabiting
And thus, just as important as taking action, and putting in the โworkโ, is taking time to change our relationship with ourselves.
For me, that has been the case, along many people that Iโm close with. I have spent the past 2.5 years heavily focused on my own fears, beliefs, actions, goals, and ultimately, life, and because of that, I have seen my own actions change dramatically.
Just one year ago, I was afraid to post anything on social media that may be criticized or ignored, so often, I didnโt post anything. As of late, Iโve shared some of the most personal stories from my life, and since I know that my intent is of good nature, and because Iโve changed my relationship with my own fears, the action freezing fear I use to feel has gone with the tide.
You know, as I share this, and I reread the journal entry, which, each day comes out in different formats, styles, and tones, I realize just how powerful writing is for me. How much value it has added to my life. How it has literally transformed the way I think, speak, act, and live my life.
Like the gym, for many, this is one ritual that is a must for me every day.
And the truth is, just a couple of years ago, the thought of ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ณ๐น๐ฒ๐ฐ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ถ๐ป ๐๐ฟ๐ถ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฐ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ฎ ๐น๐ผ๐ ๐ผ๐ณ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐ถ๐ฒ๐๐, because, I wasnโt sure I wanted to know what was really going on in the depths of my own mind.
That too, has changed.
