As I sit here in Rabat, Morocco, drinking my café espresso and reviewing my daily journal entries, I came across the last two I made from Austin, back in February.
And, I vividly remember writing them both…
The first, coming from my favorite café in Austin, Café Crème, wrote shortly after walking with what remained of my belongings in my backpack, and waiting on my friend Art to pick me up and take me to the airport.
The second, coming from the Austin airport as I stood at a charging station, headphones in my ears, eagerly awaiting my flight that was in 30 minutes. The flight that would take me to Ireland, where it all started roughly 50 days ago.
And as I read my entries, a smile came across my face.
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𝗙𝗲𝗯𝗿𝘂𝗮𝗿𝘆 𝟳, 𝟮𝟬𝟭𝟵
𝗘𝗻𝘁𝗿𝘆 #𝟭: 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁’𝘀 𝗼𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗼𝗱𝗮𝘆, 𝗮𝘀 𝗜 𝘀𝗲𝘁 𝗼𝗳𝗳 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗘𝘂𝗿𝗼𝗽𝗲?
𝗟𝗼𝗰𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻: Café Crème in Austin, Texas
I feel, alive. A little hot, too… from walking here with a 40lb backpack haha
I’m grateful that I had made enough of a lasting impression that Keegan and Andy from Café Crème in Austin, bought me my favorite tea.
That means a lot. I feel as though it’s obvious to me now. I’ve become someone that cares deeply for others. I care for how their day is… How they feel.
What’s important to them, and WHO they are.
It’s amazing to see that kindness reflected back to me, because truly, this fully mirrors what I learned about three years ago when I started my personal development journey….
Our inner world is often mirrored in the outer world we experience, and create around us.
When I was always angry, or detached emotionally, I found myself in situations that aligned with that… primarily, because inside, I was empty. I was lonely, I did not like myself….
I was angry for being a victim to what I couldn’t control, other people and my mind.
Life only seemed to beat me down, because I beat myself down… and that sadness, that loneliness came out as indifference, aggression and anger towards others.
𝗙𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝗱𝗿𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝗳 𝗶𝘁.
It was fear that kept me addicted to drugs and alcohol as a teenager
It was fear that led to me pulling the trigger in 2004
It was fear that led to me keeping women at arm’s length
It was fear that kept me in college a year longer than necessary
It was fear that moved me to Atlanta
It was fear that moved me back to Missouri
It was fear that kept me from taking time off from work
It was fear that kept me from spending money
It was fear that kept me drinking in social situations
It was fear that caused me to criticize my fiancé
It was fear that…..
Fear is ever present in our lives.
Often, it’s the quiet inner critic in our head that speaks softly enough that we take it as being the truth.. Examples being
“𝘔𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘯𝘪𝘧𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘧𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳”
“𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰 𝘰𝘯 𝘢 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘱 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘰𝘧; 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬, 𝘬𝘪𝘥𝘴, 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘺”
“𝘐𝘧 𝘐 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘫𝘰𝘣, 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴”
“𝘐𝘧 𝘐 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴”
“𝘐𝘧 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘺 “𝘯𝘰” 𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘮𝘦𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘢 𝘳𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵, 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘮𝘦”
“𝘐𝘧 𝘐 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘫𝘰𝘣, 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳”
All of these are fear messages, and most, I have said to myself at some point in my life. While it’s possible for them to be true, there’s never a guarantee of that, nor is it necessarily a bad thing…
If at the end of the day, it leads to something better for your life in the long run.
What is interesting though, when we spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about what we don’t want, we often get it.
Take for example, thinking your “𝑠𝑖𝑔𝑛𝑖𝑓𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛 𝑎𝑓𝑓𝑎𝑖𝑟”, if that is the belief, then what will happen is it will start to change how you interact with them.
Whether it’s blatant accusations, being emotionally closed off, or being short fused, one thing is certain… It will create a dynamic in the relationship that no one wants.
And if they were not cheating before, this new dynamic could lead to it, them leaving the relationship, or to a long drawn out miserable one.
And if they are cheating, well, that would need to be discussed, too.
Regardless of fact or story, thinking from a place of fear will steer all of your actions, and ultimately prevent you from either recognizing that this is an illusion, or that you need to have an honest conversation.
𝗘𝗻𝘁𝗿𝘆 #𝟮 𝗪𝗲𝗹𝗹… 𝗛𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗜 𝗮𝗺. 𝗔𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁 𝗶𝗻 𝗔𝘂𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻… 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝘆 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗼𝗳𝗳. 𝗡𝗼𝘄 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁?
Standing here, eating my almonds I feel, free. I feel I’m about to embark on an adventure and growing experience of a lifetime… I believe I will experience more humbling growth during this trip than I have in the past three years.
I’m grateful for all of my friends, my family, and for me. I’m grateful for my willingness to open up to what is possible. To what is faith and belief in what could be better. Believing in myself. Learning to love myself. Learning to be better to me. Learning to share my love with others.
It’s hard to believe that I’m here today. Standing at the airport with this opportunity staring me in the face.
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒𝑒𝑡 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑛 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑢𝑎𝑔𝑒𝑠
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑛 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑐𝑢𝑙𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑛 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑓𝑠
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑝𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑢𝑙𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑘𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑎 𝑠𝑢𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑝𝑢𝑟𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑒
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝑗𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑦 𝑖𝑛 𝑎 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑔𝑛𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑚𝑦 𝑣𝑎𝑙𝑢𝑒𝑠
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑡
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑠ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑚𝑦 𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑛
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑓𝑢𝑙 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑏𝑙𝑒
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑠ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑎 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑓𝑖𝑡𝑠 ℎ𝑢𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑟𝑦 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑒𝑎𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑓𝑜𝑜𝑑𝑠
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑠𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑠
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑜𝑛 𝑛𝑜 𝑠𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑑𝑢𝑙𝑒, 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑢𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜.. 𝑜ℎ 𝑚𝑦 𝑔𝑜𝑑 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑎𝑚𝑎𝑧𝑖𝑛𝑔
I am so grateful for this opportunity to experience the world and everything in it!
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Again, as I read them both, the certainty that I 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗱𝗲𝗰𝗶𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻 to travel, to research, to change the course of my life, became abundantly clear.
𝗔𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝘅𝗶𝗲𝘁𝘆, 𝗻𝗲𝗿𝘃𝗼𝘂𝘀𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗲𝘅𝗰𝘂𝘀𝗲𝘀 𝗜 𝗵𝗮𝗱 𝗺𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗵𝘀 𝗮𝗴𝗼 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁…
𝐶𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑣𝑖𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑙𝑎𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 — 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑛𝑜 𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠
𝑄𝑢𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑗𝑜𝑏 — 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑞𝑢𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑎𝑡
𝑇𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑 — 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑛𝑜 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑒 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑛 𝑜𝑓 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒, 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛, ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔
𝑈𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑒 𝐼 𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡’𝑠 𝑛𝑒𝑥𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒
Have become a distant memory.
A memory stamped on the timeline of my life, that I know with confidence 𝗜 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗿𝗲𝗴𝗿𝗲𝘁 making the necessary shifts in every area of my life to see it through.
What I still know to be true, if I were looking back over this period of my life, at age 75, 𝗜 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗴𝗿𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗼𝗿 𝘀𝗶𝘅 𝗺𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗵𝘀 𝘄𝗼𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗪𝗛𝗔𝗧 𝗜𝗙…
𝗜𝗙 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘀𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻 𝗔𝘂𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗱𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀
𝗜𝗙 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗺𝘆 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗲𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘆𝗲𝗿
𝗜𝗙 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘄𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁𝘀
𝗜𝗙 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗿𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗲𝗹𝘀𝗲’𝘀 𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗿𝗼𝘃𝗮𝗹 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀
𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗯𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗴𝗿𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝘆 𝘂𝗻𝗮𝗰𝗰𝗲𝗽𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗠𝗮𝘁𝘁 𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝟳𝟱.
𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗹, 𝗠𝗮𝘁𝘁 𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝟯𝟱.
Do I still have moments where amidst all the change, the uncertainty, it gets to me a bit? I get a bit nervous?
HELL YES!
But that’s part of it. It’s not possible to live a life with absolutely no fear.
Fear is good. When used and understood in the right context.
For me, 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝘄𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗱𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗼𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗳𝗲𝗮𝗿, 𝘁𝗼 𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲..
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑓𝑢𝑙 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑡𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑒
Came from 𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗮𝗴𝗲𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗲𝗮𝗿.
The messages behind…
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑧𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑏𝑙𝑎𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦 𝑏𝑢𝑠𝑦
𝑇ℎ𝑒 “𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑜𝑛𝑠” 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛’𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑢𝑛𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑠ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑤𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒 ℎ𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑙𝑦
In changing my relationship with those messages, and listening to them versus trying to numb them out….
𝗜 𝘄𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝘁𝗿𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲, 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘁.
